what up people ... just a few random things for tonight.
1. e-fame:
i see folks all the time on message boards, and through chat rooms / whatever ... try and be different people ...
if there is one thing in life that i absolutely despise ... it is people that are fake.
act one way today with you, then act another way tomorrow with them.
i hate that shit.
it seems to be all more prevalent on the internet. due to the built in anonymity of talking to people through telephone and cable lines ... it seems people tend to sac' up and start telling fairy tales.
tales of how they boned this chick, that chick, and that chick's mom ... or how they rolled through the mall and bodied a dude because he looked at him funny ...
lying comes with the territory of life. you've done it. i've done it. we've all done it.
dude1: you got a playstation 2?
dude2: hellz yeah, that shit is hot, yo!
dudes: *daps*
little white lies like these dont hurt anything. but then people start to just make up fairy tales about shit they've done, shit they got, shit they've bought, whatever ... it bothers me.
they start to make up their own 2nd and 3rd lives. it gets to the point where you dont even know yourself anymore.
you start thinking the fairy tales you told to your e-friends really happened, and when you tell your home base, they beat dat ass with the "reality stick".
be you, dont be a made up version of you.
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2. job search
i'm still in the hunt for a new job. there seems to be some ish jumping off at Belo Interactive. which is a subsidiary of the Belo Corporation ... aka one of the largest media firms in the US.
either way ... its all good ... im getting my bills paid, with a little on the side to boot ... so if nothing pops off immediately, ill manage.
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3. my life
i am in dire need of a woman. the last few months have been crazy, and i havent had time to actively pursue any potential new 'tang.
all through college, i didnt have a girl ... but it was college ... so i was never "lonely".
it seems like all my college peeps dont really do the relationship thing ... there are some ... but they are "few and far between" ...
why?
because, thats why.
there are things that your significant other gets in the way of.
(slap that b00tch, she'll move ...)
you can't just drop everything at 4am to pick your homie up at the titty bar ...
you can't just hop out of bed and go play football at 1am with the crew ...
you can't host a poker night at your crib everyweek, where bro's > hoe's, and p00n is not allowed.
in fact, a lot of times ... the "guys night out" shit is frowned upon.
and i cant deal with that. at least not yet.
maybe thats my problem. i have never really had a "relationship".
i've always had females that i could rely upon to dome me up, or catch some pelvic thrusts ... but never really a "better half".
i'm okay with that. i dont need that.
at least, not yet.
ya boy is only 19 years old. been on my own for over 2 years. a college graduate. doin shit way big.
i dont need to take that perverbial "next step" in the growth process of a human being. i dont need to "settle down" and start a new life with someone.
in my eyes, i have yet to "unsettle". im still a young buck, and ill be damned if society's supposed "right track" is gonna steer me in any direction other than the one i want to go in.
or maybe that is my problem.
i dont want to be put into anyone's box, to be observed and admired.
"you know what ... anything that is not growing. is dead.
and when they say, 'hey that doesnt fit into our box.' you tell 'em, 'im not in your box, don't try and put me in one' ..."
- lauryn hill
i wanna create my own path, go my own way. to this point, i've done that ... and i dont see any reason to change the way i am ...
lot's of people graduate high school, and say ... "now i gotta do this" ... they graduate from college, and now they have to do this, this and that.
what if i want to do this and that, but not the other thing? who is to say i cant?
people are so set in their ways and they see how every other person around them follows the bread crumb trail that leads to a "normal life", so they follow those crumbs with the best of their ability.
in hopes to lead the normal american life.
but i say ... that life isnt normal. shit happens. all the time. to everyone.
life may be a game ... but it isnt a football game. this isnt where you need to try and play it error free, in hopes of a good outcome.
people make mistakes ... if you go through your life trying to be this way or that way ... then you are setting yourself up for failure and disappointment.
you don't play conservatively and "hope for the best". you have to take risks and if shit happens. then damn.
wipe the shit off your shoes and keep going.
that trail of bread crumbs or that "map to a better life" doesnt show life's fuck ups or possible pitfalls.
they dont show the shitty parts of the movie on the coming soon trailer.
stuff happens, and if you are ripping your own way through life with a machete ... and you may not be ready for those bad incidents, but you will at least know they are coming ...
but if you are floating through life on the right track, in your box ... those bad things that may happen, may totally disrupt your "safe journey".
everyone has their own path. but you dont have to graciously accept it. live your life, and choose the path that you feel is the best for you, not the one that other people feel is right for you.
be you, dont be someone else's version of what you should be.
hope i didnt bore anyone ... but i thought i would actually use my blog to spit some knowledge.
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-i'm 0ut: - joe @ 3:22 AM
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